loving not drinking and expressing the enjoyment

Was interesting to meet with Tauranga friends at the Botianical gardens.  I was asked how I was about drinking right now in a very non judgmental way.  I said how I'd been enjoying not drinking while not having principles necessary against it which felt great.  I also spoke to my housemate and expressed my feelings of not drinking alcohol at the moment.  Will keep carrying on.  I feel really good and like I am becoming more spiritual somehow with everything going on just now.  Like I'm heading into a new realm of being.  It is my non drinking partly and mixed with all the other things in my blogs right now :)

friday vegan drinks and enjoying not drinking

Went out last night for some vegan food and although I was tempted to have an alcoholic drink I felt really good that I didn't and am glad I didn't.  It was nice to explain to Carly why I just preferred not drinking just now and to Tai Chi then meet Gail without much effort.  Maybe I should go for a run actually just to affirm all that more.

I had that sense of my whole spiritual development journey and felt that maybe I am weeding out alcohol.  Like a lot of it is habit in terms of the attitude it created etc and a good sense of moving away from that which is good.  Felt good speaking to people today and will enjoy tonight also.

still no alcohol and all good

So 23 August was my last drink I just realise and not missing it at all but have enjoyed the crowding out and feeling fresher in a lot of ways and like it's been a really good thing.  It's funny though how it is clearly something I've enjoyed a lot in the past rather than eating meat which I never was bothered about.  Urghhh so disgusting to think about that.

Enjoyed just relaxing last night with a tea and a bit of playing video games was actually kind of cool as a bit of a hobby.  Okay it's not so productive but was nice and a bit fun and I deserve that sometimes.

Today I'll enjoy my massage and hopefully meet my mate in Takapuna and can enjoy a good full day again.

getting clearer. worried how to deal with some others

Am feeling lots better and really feeling how I'm better off without drinking.  It is like I'm crowding it out really well.  I feel really calm and settled and even liking the whole idea of it and it going alongside being Vegan too.  I felt a bit weird tonight talking to a friend and realising I wouldn't feel comfortable presenting it that I'm not drinking if he comes over.  Finding way around it for now seems alright and like it will work for me.

I love how I get those jolts in my body, really as if I am growing.  The no alcohol does feel really good.  Those regrets and cringly behaviour of the past but now feeling that real soulful channelling of energy, like I can really make the world better.  It was nice to hear about my friends good fortune and know that I didn't feel jealous.  That's a great thing.

I really feel that good sense of cultivating in a major way again, like when I became Vegan almost.  I feel by keeping with all these projects I will keep growing well.  I will keep in contact with me and all the ups and downs I'll go through with it.  The writing just helps me to stay balanced.  I feel on track enough for now.