Thursday, 5 September 2013

getting clearer. worried how to deal with some others

Am feeling lots better and really feeling how I'm better off without drinking.  It is like I'm crowding it out really well.  I feel really calm and settled and even liking the whole idea of it and it going alongside being Vegan too.  I felt a bit weird tonight talking to a friend and realising I wouldn't feel comfortable presenting it that I'm not drinking if he comes over.  Finding way around it for now seems alright and like it will work for me.

I love how I get those jolts in my body, really as if I am growing.  The no alcohol does feel really good.  Those regrets and cringly behaviour of the past but now feeling that real soulful channelling of energy, like I can really make the world better.  It was nice to hear about my friends good fortune and know that I didn't feel jealous.  That's a great thing.

I really feel that good sense of cultivating in a major way again, like when I became Vegan almost.  I feel by keeping with all these projects I will keep growing well.  I will keep in contact with me and all the ups and downs I'll go through with it.  The writing just helps me to stay balanced.  I feel on track enough for now.

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