Had my last dinner out with the family. Was really great. I drove there which my family were grateful for. I think I was the only one who didn't have a few alcoholic drinks. I didn't have any. It was strange as it was certainly one of those situations I would've drank in the past. I was tempted and didn't want to stop myself if I really wanted one but went ahead not drinking and felt good. Watching some football when we got back and chatting to people I felt really cool like I was managing me and enjoying my last bit of time here feeling good and conscious and in control.
When I went to bed I had a great sleep and felt an absolutely wonderful sense of peace and love almost. It was such a great feeling. Maybe alcohol is that other thing coming out of me now through my personal development stuff. I felt like maybe I was crowding it out with other stuff. alcohol does obviously cloud us in some ways, I knew that but now I'm enjoying just being more conscious.
I guess very differently to eating meat which I can say never brought particular joy I can honestly say that drnking alcohol has brought lots and lots haha. It really has though. So many silly fun memories. It's only now maybe whereas I'm getting that connection whereas I just don't need it anymore and in fact am starting to feel better without it.
I will just keep monitoring it and keep growing through.
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