Yesterday I went out with 2 friends to the pubs in Didsbury. From the start I knew I didn't want to drink but I honestly felt the pressure to and didn't feel comfortable enough in myself to not drink. I had 3 bottles of beer (a Peroni and 2 Tiger's). I knew Tiger was Vegan and was happy to read Peroni was on my return.
I felt I held my own well although wasn't as strong and in my element as I would be without alcohol. I drank water before bed but still slept more than I would've liked and maybe wasn't as cool and coherent as I could've been in speaking to my folks afterwards but did okay.
I missed my run the following morning (this morning) which again made me think about how it doesn't have a purpose. Due to that at the Science and Industry museum I didn't feel as refreshed as I would've been and although I did well felt that lack of emotional regulation I could've had if I'd ran first thing as originally planned.
My Dad looked at my once and it's most likely my total paranoia but I wondered if I didn't seem as together as I could've been. Again very most likely my paranoia and I by no means had a hangover but most likely my awareness that I could be feeling better had I not drank. after the outing I had a great one hour run and felt back on track. See my marathon blog.
I've arranged to see my friend Stuart tomorrow. We always drank together and again it feels hard not to but since I am driving later having 2 halves is excusable so I'll do that and maybe even take a juice to Dave's in the evening and I'll let him guide if we drink but I'll just have one would be best and show me getting through well.
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